Hello, my fellow Matrix slaves – how you doing today?
If you’ve only been following my blog in January, I apologise; my content is usually way more consistent than this. If you’ve been following my blog for more than just January . . . I mean, I’m still sorry, but you’ll know that I was so damn excited for New Year. All the posts, all the goals, all the resolutions!
Well, the big G – no, not Graham Norton; God – decided to pop in and say “fuck you”. Metaphorically, of course. If there is a God, I’m sure that he’s benevolent (actually, I’m wholeheartedly unsure of that, but I don’t really want to think about the alternative) and far too busy to pop in to trigger me (now, that I am sure of – my own dad is too busy for me a solid 70% of the time; the father of 8 billion other humans? Not a chance.). But still.
Now, I’ll tell you guys the whole story another time (mainly because I have a whole post idea about making decisions centred around it) but basically what happened is I put myself under a ton of stress, worked too hard in a really unhealthy way and burnt out . . . to then discover that what I was working for I didn’t even want. So my mood, my motivation and my health were just in this downward death-spiral that then turned into a vicious cycle and-
Look, let’s just say that I’m glad January is coming to a close and I’m breaking out of my melancholy.
Thankfully, the universe provides – and it provided in the form of a blonde haired angel by the name of Isabel. You guys may remember her from my post about watching La La Land in Kensington Rooftop Garden’s outdoor cinema with her.
Isabel is a fellow blogger and soul sister – as well as one of the most motivated people I know. Seriously, this girl does so much. She’s a blogger, actress, musician . . . and it’s all her. She’s not at school, being told what to do or handed assignments; she pushes herself. It’s seriously inspiring. So I was excited to see her, have a laugh and get some of my magic back.
Until she shared that she had been feeling demotivated too. And it was honestly so therapeutic to be able to talk about it – to know that we weren’t the only ones experiencing it! However, even better than wallowing, we managed to overcome it. How? Well, let me give credit where credit is due:
Isabel suggested that we treat February as New Year. Say that Janaury is about deciding what you want out of the New Year, reflecting and deciding on the course you’ll take over the next 11 months – and February is about acting on what you decide.
And you know what? She’s right. I can look at it as I wasted an entire month and, in terms of healthy habits, have regressed to the levels of a young teenage me . . . or I can look at it as I decided on what I want to do over the next 11 months and discovered what’s important for me (take care of my health; continue to be motivated; improve my mental and spiritual wellbeing) and I actually made an essential decision for my future: what path I actually want to take, what university I want to go to . . . and what that means for me over the next few months.
So, while January was a pile of donkey dung, that’s okay. Because some of our best motivation comes through feeling bad and being in a place in life we don’t necessarily want to be . . . and using that to focus on where we do want to be and how to get there.
With that lengthy introduction, we finally reach the crux of this post: my goal-setting and re-focusing for February. As we all know by now, I am a fervent bullet journalling enthusiast – so naturally I’m going to be utilising this as my method of mass motivation. Let’s do this!
I’ve made a little video that I’d greatly appreciate it if you watched, where I do a quick talk-through January and the spreads I created over the last month and how I’ve set up my February bullet journal and why. Let me know what you think!
Personally, my refocusing is going to be forcing myself to prioritise self-care (which we all should!) so that I can actually achieve the things I set out to.
I’m mainly focusing on eating and exercise because I’m one of those people that completes forgets to eat and, as food literally fuels your fucking body, you can imagine that this never ends up particularly well for me. And, as for exercise, that doesn’t even need an explanation! Due to this, my habit trackers are all diet and exercise related.
(Well, of course I had to slip some blog goals in there too! I’m not repeating January’s lack of content.)
Anyways, I really feel like I’ve milked this wordcount for all I can, so let’s drop this post off here. I hope you guys enjoyed; what do you think of my February bullet journal spread? Did you guys get any of the January blues, or were you riding that New Year high? And did you enjoy my video? Let me know your thoughts down below!